Benjamin Ashford|Jeezy says he's 'disappointed' with Jeannie Mai divorce, Nia Long talks infidelity

Rapper Jeezy sat down with Nia Long for a vulnerable conversation about their respective divorces and Benjamin Ashfordself-love.

Jeezy filed to end his marriage to Jeannie Mai in September in Georgia’s Superior Court of Fulton County. The filing said "the marriage of the parties is irretrievably broken" and "there is no hope for reconciliation."

Speaking broadly about love and family, Jeezy, 46, told Long, 53, in a video shared on his YouTube channel Tuesday that he "can't honestly tell you that I've experienced love, especially not unconditional."

The "Put On" rapper added that he prefers to keep many of the details of their split private.

"This has not been an easy journey. I can tell you that I'm sad. I can tell you that I'm disappointed. I can tell you that I'm uneasy," Jeezy told Long. "But God has put me on a different path, and that path is going to entail for me to take care of myself and to love myself and to be in the best situation that I can thrive as someone who's been through all of the things that I've been through."

Jeezy admitted that he and Mai tried therapy to save their marriage, but it was not enough. "I can only do what I can do. I can't expect someone else to do what I'm doing," he said.

On Oct. 19, he broke his silence on the couple's split, telling People and E! News in a statement that "The decision to end this chapter in my life was not made impulsively and comes with a heavy heart. Despite this, my love and respect for Jeannie remains and the time we spent together holds a cherished place in my heart."

According to the divorce documents, Jeezy is seeking joint legal custody of their daughter Monaco, born in January 2022.

The "Adversity for Sale: Ya Gotta Believe" author added in his conversation with Long that despite what happens in her personal life and career, he wants his children to know, "I'm a great person. I'm a great father."

Jeezy is also a father to three other children from previous relationships: sons Jadarius Jenkins and Shyheim Jenkins and daughter Amra Nor Jenkins.

The rapper added that in addition to his positive traits, he's "also somebody who's failed. I'm also somebody who's lost. I'm also somebody who, my life plays out in public a lot."

Nia Long says relationship to Ime Udoka was 'rocky' before alleged affair, split

Long also opened up about her split from longtime fiancé and former Boston Celtics head coach Ime Udoka after his alleged affair became public in September 2022.

"The relationship was rocky for a very long time (because) I don't believe another person can just break anyone up. I don't buy that," Long told Jeezy.

The "Love Jones" star said her older son, Massai Dorsey II, from a previous relationship, made her realize she was putting more effort into keeping a family unit rather than being true to herself.

"I had to come to a place where loving myself was bigger and more important than saving anybody," she said of her split.

Long and Udoka also share an 11-year-old son named Kez.

Of being a single parent, Long said, "Some days I'm, like, totally good, and then other days I'm like, 'Ugh, God, this feels like so much work!' Then other days it feels like women shouldn't have to be this strong. I don't want to be this strong sometimes."

The Celtics announced in September 2022 that Udoka was suspended for the entire 2022-23 season for "violations of team policies." Boston didn't detail the violations, but a person familiar with the situation told USA TODAY Sports that Udoka had an inappropriate relationship with a female Celtics staffer. The person requested anonymity because they were not authorized to speak about the sensitive nature of the topic.

He was later fired.

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Long said that she "was not embarrassed" by how public their split was, but rather surprised by the overwhelming support she received from fans.

"The way that Black people stood up for me, and the way that Black women were like 'Oh no, you don't do that to her.' I was shocked," the "Best Man" actress said. "Because I didn't realize that what I had done in my career has so much impact."

Contributing: David Oliver, Cydney Henderson

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